Saturday, May 30, 2009 10:30 PM
Didnt intend to go out today.
Woke up ard 12 noon.
Went to IMM with jie & kids, cousin danny & his family, & mum & dad. (:
They already had their dinner & are looking after their kids as they play the playground.
mum, dad & i came abit later to meet them. (:
Mum dabao her cooked food for me.
but i ate at 10pm. :x
At least i finished it all up ! (:
Looking at these cute little kids play can really make me feel happier. (:
After that we went to giant to get groceries & headed home. (:
Haish. I'm so upset today.
Everything was alright until it was almost time to go home.
At giant in IMM just now, dad quarrelled with my sis.
Mum was unhappy, stood up & join in the quarrel.
All bcos of me. :(
I feel so useless. I'm such a burden to them.
Dad still say all bcos of the messed i've made up.
All bcos of financial issues & me, they quarrelled.
I feel so guilty. I feel so depressed. I really feel like dying. :(
Like that i wont make them worried, frustrated & stressed about me.
Isnt it better? :(
Sometimes i just think that i shouldnt come to this world.
I come here to be hated by ppl, to give ppl trouble.
I feel so useless ! I feel that i'm not fit to be their daughter & a mother.
I dont know what to do. :(
I really feel so upset when my dad says the messed i've made up is the cause of it.
That moment i really cried.
I cant take it. Its so sensitive.
I really cant stop crying.
I feel so exhausted. :(
You think i want this to happen? Haish.
Maybe my choice of keeping this baby is wrong. :(
I dont think they'll love lil jayven.
No one wants lil jayven. :(
No one loves him except me. :(
I feel more low self esteem & lacking confidence even more.
I hate myself for being such a burden. :(
Baby coming back in 1 week's time.
I really need your shoulder & your hug.
I'm so exhausted from being a burden to everyone.
I miss you baby. :(
{ilovenickchong}
lil velda (:
zac & jie
zac boy (:
