Saturday, June 6, 2009 12:34 AM
So fast & its 33 weeks !My baby jayven is growing fast !
So looking forward to the day that i give birth, yet afraid of the pain i'm going to suffer.
Mum dont let me put epidural lehhs !
I want ! I want ! >.<
I damn KIASI de lor ! :(
Hmms. I'll be going to the motherhood fair with my parents.
But i not sure if it will be today or tommorrow. (:
I cried last night. :(
Dad blames me for bringing this "mess", or should i say burden back to them.
Mums says maybe baby go adoption its better as she says i'm not doing anything for my baby.
Haish. They are already financially tight. :(
If only i got work before i came to know i was pregnant.
Then i wont have to worry who will take care of my baby & the money issues.
Mum wants baby for adoption cos she thinks baby will suffer with me & she doesnt want that.
Haish. How? I dont know what to do.
I cant do anything until i've given birth. :(
My kor wants me to study after birth.
But i need to work to get the money for baby's diapers, etc right?
Mum tells me to half work, half study.
Then baby lehhs? Who takecare?
MEANING YOU WANT ME HALF STUDY, HALF WORK, & TAKE CARE OF BABY ALSO?
Like that i surely will breakdown de lor !
Siao lehhs. Tell me go study. I know its for my own good.
But shouldnt i put that aside first & earn money?
I cant think of anyting except to just get a job & support my own baby.
But i dont know who's gonna take care of my baby. :(
This is still left unsolved.
Maid impossible will help 24hrs ma.
She's my jie's maid, so her 1st priority is to take care of her kids.
Haish. So stressing, so depressing.
I cried while talking to ice about this issue this afternoon. :(
So stressed. I've been stressed & depressed & crying for as long as my preganancy was.
I know my family's stressed too.
I think it was me to me blamed.
Its my fault i've brought the family trouble with this burden.
I'm sure baby jayven will feel sad too. :(
So afraid he'll cry alot cos i cried alot during my pregnancy. :(
Hope he's gonna be a cute & loveable baby.
Baby's back in SG ltr.
I'll be calling him to chat on the phone.
Miss him damn lots. (:
